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Each month we choose a favorite quote--something fun or something to make you think. See the archive for quotes from previous months.

I thought Dad would always be with me and he would always make everything all right. I loved him more than anyone in the world, and I'm going to miss him every day for the rest of my life. No matter how old I get, I'll never get over losing him. I know I won't. People are always saying that time helps grief and then they start talking about emotions and scars and healing, and I want to scream when I hear them say things like that. Time hasn't made me feel any better. And I don't have scars and I never will. All I have are these memories that take me back to a time when I was happy and I knew someone else loved me more than anything in the world. I had all of that and now it's gone forever. Sometimes I can't stand to think of that time or of Dad, because it hurts too much. I can't stand to think about everything I used to have, and how it's gone and it's never coming back. I can't do it.

           --Ruth Pennebaker, Conditions of Love   (Henry Holt, 1999)

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